Frustrated

Although I don't have a problem with our landlord, I have a problem landlording the bugs that cohabit with us and with sharing a jack-and-jill bathroom with our two boys and soon enough, our daughter. There are crickets every night and spiders every day. In the mornings and evenings we all brush our teeth at one sink. We've been talking about moving for soooooooooooo long and it's a circular conversation that leads us back to the beginning: where, when, how. Where do we want to live? When is a good time to move? How can we afford a bigger place or a mortgage? I just want an easy answer but it does not exist and that's why I'm starting this blog: to save me from going crazy.

A while back we thought about moving to Colorado in order to get more for our money and have a change of scenery. We expressed our interest to everyone we talked to and now all those people are asking us when we are moving. Well....because we came up with the idea, now we have to defend ourselves. The problem is....we are financially limited!!!! We can't just pick up and move. Our rent is very low thanks to the Standifers, who are very decent landlords. Employment is great at the moment and we can't jeopardize that. Our oldest loves his school and knows all the kids in his grade which gives him wonderful stability. With one income we can't afford to double our rent and that is guaranteed if we move anywhere geographically similar and/or desirable. Although home prices are lower than they were, they are still too high for us! Until I complete my undergrad I won't be working full time and that is at least one more year. I plan to graduate in 2014. All these details add up to the same answer, stay where we are. Ug!!!!! I want to move so badly but I realize patience is valuable and the only way to tolerate the bugs and the bathroom.

My main objective in blogging is to explore a new way to communicate my thoughts. I look at it like e-journaling. Also, I don't know anyone who is more frustrated with their living situation than I am. Maybe if I voice my frustrations someone will identify with me and help me or encourage me. Some days I am thankful for what we have. Other days I feel like the walls are closing in on me.